Happy 14th birthday! Say bye to Secondary2 and hello to secondary3! It was a pity that not much of my close friends will be able to go to 3Respect. I guess I will be VERY lonely during the first day of school? Huh. Don't worry, be happy!
I am not one who bow to circumstances, I believe that I will make much more new friends in Secondary3. And that e-mail makes me so motivated. I am gonna work REAL hard to get into Catholic Junior College. I really regretted not getting into triple science. Though I think I stand a great chance as my science is A2. Ms Tan even said I stand an awesome chance and was even selected for the science competition. Unfortunately, I rejected both opportunities. Regret. I am not afraid of pressure. I just wanna go to a same class with my close friends. That scene was still vividly carved in my mind, I seems to lost interest in my studies during the weeks before exams. I don't see any motivation for me to work hard. My close friends aren't working hard. Their targets are non-ambitious, aiming to go into double science. Under the influence of peer pressure, I followed their expectations and targets. I convinced myself that 3Humility was too pressurizing, too many subjects too handle, etc. Reasons were blindly weaved up in my head. But coming to this stage, I realized I have made a REAL wrong decision in life.
All my efforts of wanting to go to the same class have came to naught in the end. Not only did I not end up with my close friends, I ended up losing out. Triple science are really so sought after! And now, I had that chance to go into that class but I put it as my third choice. I shouldn't have just followed the crowd blindly. It's a regret that I will remember throughout my life. But learning from this lesson, I will work harder towards CJC. Learning from this incident, I will advice my juniors not to follow others blindly and stand up for your own decision! Kenneth Siew(My old classmate) went into triple science class(probational class) and even aims to go into Raffles Junior College and be a doctor who earns big bucks. So who am I to go into the second best class in a mediocore school? He is in a prestigious school and even aims to go to the cream-of-the-crop, the tops of the tops. I will not be relavant to compare with Kenneth then. Who will I be in the cruel society?
I celebrated with my family for my birthday with a cake. Normal routine, nothing special. nothing unique. I was really grateful. I thought my parents had forgotten about my birthday. I didn't remind them cause if I did, the celebration would be fruitless. And how could we blame them, they had three children... My eldest brother send a sms to inform my mother to get me a cake. I was really thankful. I didn't do much for this brother of mine. I was overcome with guilt. I am not a good brother, I know...... From 20thNovember onwards, I will work harder to make up for all the wrong things I have done. Can I? Will I?
My heartfelt words that have long been buried yet confessed upon today...
10:44 PM
The blogger
Johnathan. Ng. Wei. Zhao
Funky 14
15 on 20thNovember2010 .
H.1.H.S/Montfort Junior .
1.72m, 59-60kg and healthy .
Cherishes old classmates .
Appreciates friends .
